It’s Been a Weird Day

Alright kids. Here’s some backstory.

I (26) Broke up with my child’s father, Ty (22) in September. Been dating new dude G (28) since early January, exclusive since end of February. G told me he was contemplating moving back home to the Midwest from the PNW when we had met, he has several family members with health issues and for this reason He wasn’t sure he could be in a relationship. But we got on like a house on fire and he asked me to be his girlfriend after we’d been seeing one another a few months. I said yes. Things are great, we are hanging out when my daughter is with her dad. Any issues are talked through and dealt with, with no escalation. We were an amazing couple and good for one another. Uplifting for each other and positive. It was healthy.

Then his aunt passed a few weeks ago. This week all 3 of his surviving grandparents are now facing medical issues. He was raised super religious and close to family. He has since dropped the religious stuff but family is still super important to him. With so much going on back home the voice calling him there finally won. He told me today that he had decided to move back home. I had kind of felt like it was coming after he told me yesterday about his grandparents. I had always known that although he had asked me to be with him it didn’t mean he was staying for sure. He had told me after a very good job interview so I was in a great mood, I had also received a phone call that I’d received an offer for the position. Despite what he’d told me I was kind of riding a high from getting this job I so desperately wanted. I also understood why he choose to go back and I don’t fault him for it. I’m actually proud of him for coming to a decision and doing what he felt was best for himself and his family. What I’m trying to say is that in the moment I took it beautifully. I stayed for a few hours and I made my way home. I genuinely believe he still deeply cares for me and wants to be with me, life just sucks sometimes and as grown ups we need to do what’s right over what we want.

I texted him a few times and he hasn’t responded. I believe he is just taking some space and trying to get everything figured out. It was not an easy thing for him to do but it’s hard not having him to talk to. Especially since I was also fortunate enough to find out my ex is seeing someone today. I left Ty and I don’t want him back, he was awful to me and I still get so anxious around him I get nauseated and can’t eat for the remainder of the day, but as soon as I found out about him seeing someone all the chill I had about my breakup went away and the gravity of what I’m loosing in G washed over me. And perhaps some jealousy about my ex too. Hard to shake the feeling of having some claim over them when you have a kid together.

I just feel weird and confused. It’s been a super wildly emotional day.

Submitted March 29, 2019 at 12:37PM by britain2138 https://ift.tt/2FCYXB2