Am I too Needy?

I've grown up in a very huggy family. 20 years of my life, and I've almost never gone a day without hugging someone I love. Touch is my love language. Any of my friends can attest to that. It even gets annoying to some of them. My dad is probably a little to blame here as he would hold me and hug me constantly as a kid whenever I needed it or wanted it no matter what else he was doing. Thats wonderful right? I'm really really blessed to have what I have right now.

And I'm so scared to lose it all.

I'm 20 years old and I know soon I'll have to move out of state, as my dream career is not something common in my current home. I have mentally prepared myself to be independent. Im slowly overcoming my depression so I'm not scared of hurting myself if my support system isn't near by. I've even been getting excited at the idea of new and fresh locations, people, and experiences.

But I'm still so so scared to loose physical contact.

I've become suddenly very touch starved tonight at the thought of not having it in the future. I'm scared at what it could do to me and the progress I've made. I don't know what to do with myself with it.

I need something uplifting. Some encouragement. But I'm scared that people will just say I need to suck it up. That there is no cure for my fear. I don't want my love and neediness to clip my wings on who I need to become, but how do I do that?

I just need a hug so badly right now

My best idea rn is getting a pet. I hope that is something that helps.

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