So I'm posting this update simply because I got a lot of comments and messages on my inbox about how my last update was uplifting and the story itself was "hot". I hope that you don't feel I'm oversharing this time but man, things are heating up.
So precisely 8 days since my last update and 9 days since I caved, walked across the hallway and fucked my wife. Things have continued to improve. It was awkward the following night heading back to the spare room after a few hours snuggling and kissing on the sofa but I reassured her she needs the space as much as I did and reminded her how closer we are right now as a result. 33 Days in the spare room and every night is getting harder and harder to leave her and sleep on my own. It's like we're building our relationship from scratch out of pure desire.
Her anxiety is becoming less and less of an issue as she not only allows me to explore more of her body again but actively encourages me to do so. She would typically point out areas that are particularly sensitive to her and I would kiss those areas to (sort of) "stress test" what kind of sensitivity are we looking at. This makes her appear more comfortable.
So last night and the reason for this update we had sex again. Straight up, slow ball busting passionate sex, which my wife initiated. Wow.
However... She decided to hire a carpet cleaner and cleaned our eldest child's bedroom floor, leaving it wet and offered MY haven of a bedroom to our eldest (10 years old, irrelevant). This pissed me off. How dare she. I felt trapped like all this progress and all of a sudden I was being manipulated to sleeping in the marital bed out if default. "Fuck it" I thought. I'll sleep on the couch.
But then I realized that would be counter productive as that's clearly avoidance and a bit passive aggressive. Anyway, I didn't show her how angry I was about this and remained coy. I went to the gym and pounded out a few extra reps in the weight room out of frustration. When I returned our kids were already in bed and my wife was just coming back downstairs, I poured us some drinks and we sat on the sofa and watched a terrible movie. Neither of us wanted to turn it off simply because we were enjoying each others company.
Neither of us brought up my sleeping arrangements for the night. When we went upstairs to bed I stripped off my t shirt and got under the covers of the marital bed. The side of the bed I'd always slept but felt like a decade ago. It felt awkward again. I left my shorts on.
She got I. The other side and then we faced each other and just lay there looking at each other. I was wondering wether I should make a move and if I did would she reject me and would that set us back...
...Fuck it
I nudged closer to her, wrapped one leg over her hips and semi climbed atop of her, enough so I could get in for a strong passionate kiss. That's all it was, but she kept pulling me back every time I pulled away. I moved to her neck and ears and was kissing around those areas, then somehow I'd end up back to full on tongue in mouth kisses and the whole time I am conscious my free hand never moved from the top of her thighs. I slowly edged my fingers around her thigh and she whispered "I WILL fall asleep soon. I'm soo tired". Despite the prolonged kissing and the increasingly erect penis growing up her leg she left me with that familiar bombshell.
The old me would roll over in a huff. Not now, not the new Me!
I stopped my hand immediately and kissed her one more time and said "that's ok babe, I've enjoyed the night with you." But that's not what my cock was saying. I rolled off and lay silent on my back for about 30 seconds when I felt her hand appear on my chest, her fingers spread wide, she had my nipple between two fingers and it felt nice. She made a clearly bullshit reason for landing her hand there but I understand her real intentions. She said "you're breathing seems weird" she paused and I said nothing in return, she continued with "can you hear it".
"Not really, no." I said finally, "seems normal"
She just hummed but then slowly began moving her hand down my chest across my abs, covering as much as she could. She nibbled at my ear as she slid her fingers underneath the waistband of my shorts. I was still hard from earlier, she grabbed me and gave a few gentle strokes as I faced her. I didn't move. I was astounded, in shock. Is my wife initiating sex for the first time in 10 years!!?? I felt there and then that the bedroom carpet cleaning, giving up my room, putting me in this bed, the closeness on the sofa, the shitty movie which made us enjoy each other more was all planned to get me to this point in the bedroom on my back so she could slide her hand into my pants and initiate sex with me with the very least amount of anxiety for her!
She had planned this and executed it perfectly.
She whipped off both of our bottoms and she climbed on top of me. No amount of foreplay from me down there was needed as she was ready to go. I believe this meant she wanted it. I believe that her comment about being tired earlier was a sign of her nervousness and anxiety that she might not actually follow through with her plan.
Skipping some of the juicy oversharing details, I flipped her off and onto her back as I got between her legs. I finished very slowy, got face to face with her, some kissing but mainly looking at each other, I pressed slow but as deep and hard as I could go.
Unfortunately and selfishly I could not keep it going until she orgasmed and I came inside her looking into eyes. I can honestly say it was intense. The build up, the release.
Afterwards we hugged and talked for about an hour, she confessed to planning the whole thing and almost bottled it. She didn't feel confident in just asking me to come to bed or sexy enough to entice me. This saddens me and I'll work on how I can help make her feel confident enough.
I told her how much it meant to me that she put this effort in and how significant it was that she initiated when she simply could have allowed it to continue when I was making a move.
She told me that she's aware I have my annual appraisal at work today and wanted to help me be in a positive good place for that to happen.
I feel we are making fantastic progress. I confessed to her the other day that I can't stop thinking about her while at work and can't wait to come home and give her a great big kiss and a tight squeezy cuddle. She echoed that and told me she feels the same and I believe her.
It's not mission accomplished yet and I have to figure out my next move but somehow everything is coming up roses at the moment and I couldn't have wished for a better outcome.
I just wanted to share that with you all since the amount of support I've been recieving has absolutely blowen me away and encourages me to keep updating. Also a huge thank you to the mysterious generous people on her who have given me gold and platinum. It's really really not necessarily, largely because I don't know what to do with it but I'm am eternally grateful nonetheless.
Please let me know if this is too much information as I'm apprehensive about oversharing and try to write with respect.
https://ift.tt/eA8V8J Submitted May 02, 2019 at 01:15PM by Fuddemy http://bit.ly/2UURAu6
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