You're breaking my heart, Rockstar! :'(

I fell in love with Red Dead online the day it dropped—sometimes i can't believe it's almost been a year! I met so many wonderful people, spent countless nights laughing my ass off with my posse, and despite the emptiness and glitched-out world we were plunged into in the beginning, the game settled into my heart, where it remained until very recently.If you've been here since the beginning, then you know that most issues these days are nothing compared to the absolute bullshit we had to deal with. I'm talking about things like carcasses despawning off your horse if you whistled it over when it got too far, griefers sweating you across the entire map (because we could see where everybody was at all times). There was that span of time where no animals or NPC's spawned, your horse couldn't be summoned, and the servers would crash every 15 minutes. I remember everyone spawning in, all in the same general area. With the little time they had, they'd run into town and start blasting each other to bits until the game inevitably gave up. It was insane.The game was unplayable so often, I sometimes wonder how I managed to love it the way I did during those times. Getting dropped from the session was commonplace—sometimes if you were looking at the players list you'd see 5-6 names disappear all at once. Stranger missions would barely ever work properly. Now that I think about it, making money back then was an absolute pain in the ass. You really could only hunt or play the same missions over and over and over again. Sure, PVP modes were a money-making option, but I found that most players only used those modes to rank up quickly. It's never been my cup of tea, either.Again, despite all that, I LOVED the game. I played it every night. I met some of my best friends, people I'd grow to love, on there. It helped me get out of my shell and speak to others more. It meant the world to me.But these days... Jesus. What has this game become? It's slowly reverting back to what it was—a fucking snoozefest.I cannot tell you how many infinite loading screens I've encountered just this week. My missions will not load. I cannot do any type of delivery without being consumed by a loading screen that will never go away. I have been dropped from the session this week more than I have in months—I haven't been able to even load in today! I mean, what the fuck Rockstar? It's infuriating.All I've been trying to do is grind for cash so that I can afford to buy the overly priced add-ons for my bar. I am so sad — I feel like I just can't do it anymore.Also, when I try to socialize with randoms, they just speed away like frightened rabbits. What the fuck is up with that?I feel like Rockstar has their priorities all fucked up. With all these new updates to GTA 5 (which is a very cancerous game, btw lol), I feel like they're turning a blind eye to the issues going on in RDO. That bothers me. It's a beautiful game with the potential to be as big as GTA, if they gave a shit enough. Seeing this thing that I have loved so much crumble into what it is now is heartbreaking. And I know there's going to be people saying, "Well don't play it then!" — which is always an option. The point is, I don't want that to be an option. I want to play the game. I want to love it again!Okay, rant over. https://www.reddit.com/r/RedDeadOnline/comments/ehv8fu/youre_breaking_my_heart_rockstar/?utm_source=ifttt