I'm home litterally 24/7 in a rural area. Nowhere around to go, none of my friends live close, never had someone to call my girlfriend.

(Warning this will be somewhat long)I am a 16 y/o boy living in my annoying grandma's 40 y/o wooden house with my dad, step-mom, and baby brother. I'm enrolled in an online high school meaning I'm pretty much home 24/7 with doing nothing but doing 4-5 hours of school every weekday and playing videogames. I live in a rural area where there are only houses around and small stores. 10 years ago our family was one, we were wealthy and I was always smart, energetic and happy. The next coming years would change it all.2010 would be one of the worst years of my life, when my favorite grandma (mothers side) died of cancer. Still though, being the happy and smart kid that I was, quickly recovered and came back to school getting 100s everywhere and finishing the grade as number 1 of my class. 3rd grade was when my parents would be screaming at each other all the time, and me and my brother were always crying in our room hearing them. After a couple months they got divorced, which really affected me and my grades in 3rd grade, but luckily I had one of the best teachers ever, making sure everyone was always enjoying class. 4th grade I had the worst teacher ever, I remember that old hag very well because of how boring and annoying her class was, but of course my smartass had excellent grades anyway. 5th to 6th grade was pretty alright. Then I entered middle school which was when we were living with our stepmom which thankfully is the best mom ever, not like my slutty and dumb real mom which probably her only purpose in life is to widen her p*ssy as much as possible.Anyway, middle school is where I would meet my best friends ever and for the most part these years were chill.But then, oh then came high school and puberty. As I was growing up I was starting to realize how much was hidden from me as a child. I found out how much in debt my dad was because he didn't pay his taxes, and if not for my stepmom making him wake up and start paying his taxes, he would definitely be in jail right now. I found out the real reason my parents got divorced (my mom cheated) and around the same time my dad couldn't afford rent anymore so we moved to my old grandma's old shitty house, but hey atleast she asked for no rent money. These were the years where my happiness and energy came crashing straight down. Fast forward 2 years to now, still living in the same old rotten house, my parents bought a good house on a low price w/o electricity or water 3 years ago, its still there with no progress. I'm pretty much dead inside, I feel no emotion, nothing makes me happy or excited anymore. Of course I can laugh at funny videos, memes or funny moments when playing games with my friends, but I am in no way truly happy at all. My ability to post a picture of myself online without worries completely went away (mainly because I'm pretty skinny and short for an average 16 y/o). Because I switched to online school bc my private school was too expensive, I have no way to socialize with anyone my age on a daily basis. I now have no way to get to know a girl or something of course, and I'm too scared to talk to anyone on social media because I'm too worried about being rejected and laughed at. I'm not scared at all to talk to a girl irl though, I just feel very nervous when going directly at them online. I am mainly very introverted around my boring ass family, but when its me and my best friends and/or my old classmates at a party, I be partying, drinking, screaming at the song lyrics and having fun like there's no tomorrow. As of writing this though, I have become super lazy, not having any energy or passion to do my schoolwork everyday. Barely enjoying videogames that much anymore. By doing pretty much nothing all day, I barely feel hungry, but of course I do make sure I eat everyday. I always tell myself that I will exercise today, but I never do it because my grandma's house is right next to my aunt's house to the left and great aunt's house to the right, which basically means whenever I'm outside they can all see me, and I get embarrased to do some exercise outside while everyone is looking at me while laughing. I am so bored bc if I aint on my laptop or phone, I pretty much have nothing to do. There are no parks, movie theaters, malls, or any other interesting thing around here to do. I have lots of dreams, but no energy to get to them.TL;DR - 16 y/o life ruined dead inside boy with nothing to do everyday and nobody to have an emotional or personal conversation with.Not trying to break rule 6 of this subreddit but if any lonely girl wants to talk about our hobbies, personal, or emotional stuff. Feel free to dm me. We can chat wherever you feel comfortable. I never really even had a friend that is a girl, so I'm really looking to change that. https://www.reddit.com/r/lonely/comments/ejojl0/im_home_litterally_247_in_a_rural_area_nowhere/?utm_source=ifttt